Thursday, November 19, 2009

Edaline - I Wrote The Last Chapter For You



In a downloading frenzy this evening, I discovered this FUCKING AMAZING band called Edaline. They have the classic midwestern emo sound a la Mineral (Endserenading era) and Appleseed Cast (End Of The Ring Wars era) but they are slightly heavier and a bit more complex. I like pretty much any band of this genre, talent or not, but this band is horribly under-discovered it seems. I am so stoked on this genre all over again after hearing them.

I checked out some info on them and they have members of The Velvet Teen and Desert City Soundtrack. When I discovered that, I pretty much slapped my forehead because I should have known. You can hear it very well, especially in the vocals. Most of the vocals are sung, but there are also some strained screams that really tug on your heart strings.

Download this record like you've never downloaded anything before.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Emo is dead!

That's the name of this awesome Mediafire link someone told me about. So much good emo/screamo/punk, old and new. All free and downloadable in MP3 form. Here is the link: http://www.mediafire.com/emoisdead

It doesn't get much better than this. I even found the MP3s to the Blank (Ryan from Cross My Heart's first band) album. I bought that CD when I was in my teens from Ryan himself at a Liars Academy show. I lost it when I moved next door years ago. It would have been nice to have the CD still, but at least I can listen to it now.

There is even live Boy's Life recordings in here! So good.

Friday, November 13, 2009

The money we spend in taxes is unnecessary

Any money budgeted for revenue not spent in a year is not put toward the next year's budget. Instead it is put in investments. No retro-activity. Instead, it pays off interest accumulated from loans from the Federal Reserve. Does anyone else find this completely wrong?

Scores of women suffer miscarriages after Swine Flu vaccine

I urge you to read the linked article. You will read testimonies of women who were effected by the Swine Flu vaccine regarding their pregnancies.

I understand that this all must be a difficult concept to wrap your head around. I know it seems so radical. A new world order of population control and reduction by the WHO and CDC, etc. However, if you back up and look at everything from a larger and critical perspective, things start to fall into place. At least they do in my mind (as well as many others' minds). The poorer classes continue to get poorer while the few in the very high classes are becoming richer and more powerful. Major health problems are becoming more frequent and rampant as "big pharma" is drawing more attention to their medicines and, in my opinion, trying to brainwash the public into becoming more dependent on them. Most of the major problems in our society are not getting better. There are small improvements here and there, but mostly, things are headed downhill and they have been that way for quite some time. It all depends on how you look at it, and I try to look at it as objectively and generally as I can while considering the truth about current events as well as analyzing history.

Anyway... the article:


U.S. health authorities have made pregnant women one of the highest priority groups for getting the H1N1 swine flu vaccine, but is it actually safe for pregnant women and their babies? Well, the truth is that miscarriage reports from pregnant women who have taken the H1N1 swine flu vaccine are starting to pour in from all over the nation. Vaccines and pregnancy simply do not mix safely. In fact, the package inserts for the swine flu vaccines actually say that the safety of these vaccines for pregnant women has not been established.
-My friend Jeremiah

Thursday, November 12, 2009

A Light In The Attic - When They Sleep


I listened to this band for the first time today. They have members of Yaphet Kotto and Suicide Nation. They are only a three-piece but their sound is real epic and noisy. They remind me of if Yaphet Kotto made love to Off Minor and had a more complex, heavier, faster kid who liked to scream a lot.

They also did a split with Takuru, another awesome screamo band I've enjoyed for quite some time. Maybe I'll post that, too, one day.

Hammock - Maybe They Will Sing For Us Tomorrow


Hammock is clearly one of my favorite bands of all time. They create beautiful layered soundscapes of some of the most emotive melodies and progressions imaginable. Out of all of their releases, only a few songs have drums and vocals. I have posted releases by them before, but I haven't yet posted their most recent release which came out last year. It is by far my favorite. There are no overdubs except for cello. Just keys and guitars. This album is glorious. I don't think a week goes by I don't listen to it at least two or three times.

Here is a fairly new interview with the band: http://www.trapdoorsun.com/music/hammock.aspx

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Grandfather arrested, held for six hours for saying 'fuck'

A grandfather was arrested at dawn and held in a police cell for six hours for using a single swear-word in front of a council official.

Thomas Catcheside, 67, had his fingerprints and DNA taken, before being issued with an £80 fixed-penalty notice.

His arrest followed a dispute with a council official about 'dangerously slippery' communal stairs in his block of flats in Cambridge.

Mr Catcheside, who is chairman of his residents' group, has been campaigning for three years for safety improvements.

But when an official visiting the site prevented him from listening to a phone call to his supervisor on October 30, he finally lost his temper and said: 'Don't you tell me what I can and can't do in my own ****ing place.'

The official complained of feeling 'threatened' and six days later Mr Catcheside was arrested at 5.35am on suspicion of 'causing harassment, alarm or distress in a public place'.

Read more here: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1226688/Grandfather-arrested-dawn-held-police-cell-SIX-hours-using-single-swear-word-council-official.html

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Seattle police officer shot dead on Halloween; Possible connection with arson

I wasn't going to re-post this article initially until I read the comments going back and forth on my Facebook news feed. I thought I would post the article and then re-post the comments. I am not openly taking a position on this issue just yet. I just wanted to post this for documentation's sake so that others could read the stands others are taking.


And here are the comments:

Drew LeVanviolence: brings more violence

Dylan Petrohilos: pacifism is a privileged position, to only those who can afford to not fight back against capital and the state.

Also really? This is probably someone who was fucked over by the state and went crazy...who feels extremely isolated by society.

And you get pissed off at the person? Seriously dude? The person who is probably up against a wall who is turning social relationships upside down who is probably more than likely to bring about anarchy before anarchists could?

Drew LeVanit: seems that the officer was a random target, whats the justification in that? it may be a little different if that particular officer wronged that person in anyways, but I still do not see the justification of taking ones life, cop or not.

that officer also has a family, a mother, a father, maybe a wife and children.
about an hour ago

Chris Siennick: It's too bad he didn't organize. Although I'm not about directly killing police officers until they actively and blatantly kill activists(Like Fred Hampton in the 70's). I support the Arson.

The killing though, brought too much attention to what he was doing, and also brought VERY VERY bad media. I think we're lucky that he didn't give the press any statement at all.

Police are violent agents of the state. They carry weapons where normal people do not. They enforce rules that were set upon us with no input of our own. But in the perception of it all, they believe they're just helping out. Violence against the police is to be expected. They will be the first enemies, and probably the only ones that die loyally to the rich during class war.

Collin De Laval: haahaha, "violence brings more violence'?! What the fuck are you talking about. Take a look around you. Any attack against agents of the state is self defense, and should be supported.

Dylan Petrohilos: what do you mean drew? Cops do shit all the fucking time, have you ever been harassed by cops? And i dont mean getting your skate board taken away or something? Like has your family ever needed police when they were usable and they did nothing but enforce patriarchy or traditional social roles?

That is the roles of cops.

I dont know the person and i dont know their justification but it's an extremely privileged view to be like eh not all cops are bad. And are usually brought up by people who have never faced or lived in communities that face police violence every day.

Drew LeVan: So killing a random cop to make a statement is okay?

Im not saying all cops are good or bad, yeah they're fucked up, but to disagree with the death penalty and be ok with a person killing a cop, is a little hypocritical to me.

Im not saying the cops havn't wronged anyone. The torching of the cop cars is fine by me, but killing a cop is not. And sure cops kill people all the time, and they do deserve justice, but to pick on off at random? no that's not okay.

It is beyond me how you guys can justify the killing of anyone.

could you be anymore condescending with the skateboard shit? Yes I have been harassed, not to the extent that you are suggesting however. I've been pulled over and had my car searched front to back, inside and out, only because the officer thought I was on drugs, no other reason at all.. and those of you who know me, ive never done drugs.

A cop forced his way into our apartment when someone pulled the fire alarm, targeting Jen as a weaker person and more willing to allow him inside, and even though he already knew who pulled it, and it wasn't any of us, he still tried to make us admit to something we didn't do. of course this is not as extreme of harassment you are talking about, but it has happened.

Dylan Petrohilos: sorry i didnt mean to be an asshole, Im just not gonna get pissed off when a cop is murdered cause of how much fucked up shit they do every day.

It's shitty to kill someone but i imagine that this cop didnt use that same thought process when he probably arrested some kid for dealing drugs who might have had a family and was using the money from drugs.

(this is why argueing about possibilities is a logical fallacy)

I just think your position is inherently comes from some sort of privileged place.

Collin De Laval: Youth are attacked or killed everyday by the police in my neighborhood, and when they attack back, it would never cross my mind to tell them that there actions are not OK. I agree with any expression of rage from oppressed peoples, regardless if it lines up with some sort-of anarcho-liberal ideology.

The death penalty and the killing of a cop are certainly not the same thing. the death penalty has its roots within the prison-industrial complex, where as a disenfranchised person attacking (or killing) a cop does not. We need to begin to make the distinction between logical acts of rage and insurrection, and the actions of the state, who uses violence to consolidate power.

"To revolt is a natural tendency of life. Even a worm turns against the foot that crushes it. In general, the vitality and relative dignity of an animal can be measured by the intensity of its instinct to revolt. "

Alec LoCurzio: Dylan, those who advocate violence on your level also take a fairly privileged position, just as pacifism is privileged. Insurrectionist Anarchism is war mongering at it's finest.

The cop did not deserve that, agent of the state or not it was a random killing. Associating yourself and our political cause with that is the reason Anarchism has such limited political influence in the world.

Take a step back, Propaganda By Deed is fucking dead and good riddance.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Sam Donaldson: Lets Get Rid Of The Fed Now Before They Do Further Damage

Destruction Of The Dollar, Global Currency, New World Order


Friday, 6 Nov 2009 · "If the global currency crisis unfolds, then inevitably you get an alignment of a global world government. A new global currency and a new world order, so we may be moving towards that," he said.

The dollar will get "utterly destroyed" and become "virtually worthless", said Damon Vickers, chief investment officer of Nine Points Capital Partners. Due to the huge wage disparities between the United States and emerging markets like China, Vickers said that may resolve itself in some type of a global currency crisis.

Rihanna & Domestic Abuse


I don't know anything about this pop star besides the shitty (IMO) music she makes/sings over, but domestic abuse, especially within romantic relationships, is never deserved nor is it something to make light of.

Check out the following video hosted on Myspace and then read the comments some people are leaving. It's so hard to maintain hope for humanity after reading some of the things people have to say.

This is the world I live in. A world full of insensitive, ignorant, arrogant people. I know that we all have our short-comings, and I have acted out of insensitivity, ignorance and arrogance in my life time just as anyone else has. But this is an extent that is foreign to me and it really blows my mind. I can't possibly imagine anyone I am close with let alone myself talking the way some of these commenters talk about this situation. How am I supposed to not be embarrassed of my own human race after seeing such responses to such a consequential, pressing issue?


I would have embedded the video but Myspace wasn't allowing it. I guess they don't want any anti-domestic abuse messages being spread outside of their corporate network.

Here are some of the comment highlights...
dah. . . didnt this stupid cunt go back and fuck him? Isn't that pretty much rewarding him for beating the fuck out of her. god. . . that bitch got rihanna-ed and then went back for more. She cant get enough knuckle sandwiches i guess
this is bull shit rihanna just wants to make chris look bad . . . . . . . . . RIHANNA thats why u should of kept your month shut when u saw that tex on his phone so you ask for it AND YOU WANT OTHERS TOO LEARN FROM YOU FUNNY PUTING NUDE PIC ON UR FRONT ALBUM . . . . . . . . . . ur just mad cus chris is better then u
And here is my favorite one.
lol he need ta beat her again 4 runnin her mouf on tv and messin up his fan base. . . wutt happen tu M. O. B!!!! hello!
I'm moving to Mars.

Moose - Cool Breeze EP, Jack EP, Reprise EP


Moose is a shoegaze band. They pretty much have all the elements of all the legendary shoegaze acts like Slowdive, My Bloody Valentine and Ride. There is even some Joy Division in there, I think.

Shadow Gov't & Sensible Nectar


Shadow Gov't re-recorded old songs and recorded a new one last night. Download them for free here. If you didn't already know, Shadow Gov't is pretty much a shoegaze meets screamo band that I am in with Jeremiah from Age Sixteen and Age Sixteen's old drummer's brother Mike.


Also, Sensible Nectar, I put up all the MP3s that I've recorded for my solo improv/ambient/noise thing. You can download them here. Included in that link are some recordings that won't be officially released, all of the tracks from my double-CD entitled "Everything's Dancing For You" and then a track (the continuous version and the divided version are both available) that I recorded for Afternoons Modeling records. It will be released on a limited edition cassette fairly soon.

Please feel free to distribute this music freely. Hopefully the people who really like it and want to support the bands will buy a physical copy. There is a Sensible Nectar online store here.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Activism

Our big visions of multiculturalism and reconciliation will make their way into the world only when they are first lived out in real relationships, out of our homes and around our dinner tables and in our living rooms.
This quote was posted as a friend's status today on Facebook. I cannot find the author, and it may be him himself (Nathan Canning), but I found it to be very profound. It sums up a thought I've been pondering for quite a while concerning activism and people who are concerned with and pushing social change. I've noticed a lot of people, including myself, so emotionally invested in making a difference in the world when their own personal and family lives are suffering due to their own short-comings. Without a solid foundation of goodness within ourselves, I feel like our abilities to affect the bigger pictures could be ineffective.

EDIT: Nathan pointed out to me who the quote was from: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shane_Claiborne

Asterisk - Dogma


I stumbled across this band today in a powerviolence/grind downloading frenzy. It's hard to describe this band besides calling them extremely schizophrenic. They take noise, grind, screamo, powerviolence, punk and some experimental elements and throw them all into a blender.

This album contains 41 tracks almost all under a minute long. They have multiple vocalists and use ridiculous song structures. The guitar tone reminds me a bit of Ampere because it's not very distorted but still very piercing. I'd say they are a lot like Bucket Full Of Teeth only without the electronics and a LOT crazier and faster. A Fine Boat, That Coffin! rings a bell as well. However, I think I like this band a lot more than the aforementioned bands. Well, maybe not as much as Ampere...

Anyone who likes extreme, loud, chaotic, schizophrenic music will surely enjoy this.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Swine Flu Vaccinations

Copied from my good friend Jeremiah...

Here's some important information that I've been looking into for a while. Now that the swine flu vaccination will be given to EVERYONE in Hawaii, I wanted to inform and possibly prepare those i care about to make a wise, reasonable, and well thought out decision.

"...the Department of Health and the Hawai'i National Guard would be administering swine flu vaccine to the general public statewide. 'It's not just going to be children, of course,' Lingle said. 'It will be everybody.'" - http://www.honoluluadvertiser.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=2009910140325

Read this article about how the CDC has stopped testing for the swine flu: http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2009/10/24/CBS-Reveals-that-Swine-Flu-Cases-Seriously-Overestimated.aspx (lots of other good stuff in here about the CDC and legal info.)

We're supposed to trust that there is a pandemic; that everyone with flu like symptoms probably has swine flu, without any numbers being crunched. Considering well known health issues brought upon people by their government (agent orange, gulf war syndrome, the Tuskegee syphilis experiment) and corporations (Monsanto's cancer causing PCB's in Anniston, Albama) I have trouble accepting the word of the CDC and FDA which are run by many people with corporate conflicts of interest (vaccine makers essentially approve vaccines).

I for one will refuse to take a shot where the effects on fertility are unknown: Most flu vaccine inserts state "[insert flu vaccine name here] has not been evaluated for its carcinogenic or mutagenic potential or its potential to impair fertility." http://www.vaclib.org/chapter/inserts.htm#flumist. Not to mention all the other possible side effects.

Yet, measures like the ones in Hawaii are still moving forward. I am particularly interested in what will happen to Hawaiians that refuse to get the shot. I am skeptical of the logic used to convince the public this is a good idea, so please check this all for yourself, and if you too are skeptical and as concerned as me, please spread the word.

In the meantime, I will take the advice of my holistic doctor, and others like Dr. Mercola (http://www.mercola.com/) and Dr. Tenpenny (http://drtenpenny.com/default.aspx), that refer to natural ways of keeping yourself healthy and building natural immunities that don't come with vaccine side effects.

- Jeremiah

A great follow-up to this post would be the following Facebook notes, one of which is a duplicate of this post with some good comments by readers here. Another good follow-up can be found here in another Facebook note Jeremiah found.

My mostly rare/limited Vinyl/CD/Cassette list

Her Breath On Glass - The Singles Box [#6 of 26]
  • 1. The Singles Series 7" [#54 of ?] [From A Strangers Hands/Ape Must Not Kill Ape]
  • 2. Her Breath On Glass/The Brass split 7" [Dear New England]
  • 3. 6" [Listen To Aylin]
  • 4. Her Breath On Glass/Sofy Major split 7" [IFB #16]
  • 5. 7.18.08 Live CD
  • 6. Expendable Youth - 3 song 7" [Shaman]
  • 7. Walker & Back Of Dave - split 7" [Polyvinyl]
  • 8. Soihadtoshoothim, C.R., Devoid Of Faith, The Judas Iscariot - split 7" [Mountain/Fallout]
  • 9. Sensefield - Beautiful Beautiful 7" [CI] [#818 of ?]
  • 10. A Day In Black And White & Silent Reminder - split 7" [Magna Carta]
  • 11. Project Grizzly - 12 Steps EP 7" [Sounds Of Revolution]
  • 12. Project Grizzly - Ebay Apocolypse 7" [Perplexing]
  • 13. Ruiner & Day Of The Dead - split 7" [Burn Bridges]
  • 14. Slingshot Dakota - Spring 2009 Demo CD
  • 15. Angel Hair - 2 song 7" [Gravity Records]
  • 16. Frail - 5 song 7" [Kidney Room Records]
  • 17. Portrait - 3 song 7" [Stickfigure]
  • 18. Mineral - 2 song 7" [Caufield #CR023]
  • 19. Braid - I'm Afraid Of Everything 7" [Polyvinyl]
  • 20. Braid - Rainsnowmatch 7" [Polyvinyl #4]
  • 21. You And I - The First Seven Inch 7" [Track Star]
  • 22. State Route 522 - 4 song 7" [Excursion #EXC034] [#12 of 110]
  • 23. Counting The Days - 5 song 7" [Burning Bridges #BURN002]
  • 24. The Walkmen - 2 song 7" [Record Collection]
  • 25. Underoath - 2 song 7" [Solid State]
  • 26. Pala - 3 song 7" [A389 #0025]
  • 27. Indian Summer - Hidden Arithmetic CD [Future]
  • 28. Get Up Kids & Coalesce - Split 7" [Second Nature]
  • 29. Cross My Heart & The Exploder - Split 7" [Reptilian]
  • 30. The Lost Tourists - Real People CD [#1 of 265]
  • 31. Army Of Kashyyyk & Pala - Split CD [#60 of 100]
  • 32. Suis La Lune - Quiet, Pull The Strings! & Heir Tour CD [#1 of 50]
  • 33. Nice People - Give Until It's Gone CD [#35 of 50] [Security Blanket #3]
  • 34. Counting The Days - April 10th 2008 7" [#1 of 50] [Burn Bridges #BURN008]
  • 35. Grandfather Clock - In The Night Kitchen CD
  • 36. Straight No Chaser - 5 song CD
  • 37. Grandfather Clock - Some Old Songs CD
  • 38. Suis La Lune - Quiet, Pull The Strings! CD [Ape Must Not Kill Ape]
  • 39. The Caution Children - 3 song CD
  • 40. Ruiner - 3 song demo cassette [Silly Girl]
  • 41. The Appleseed Cast - The End Of The Ring Wars Double LP 12" [Deep Elm/Goodcore]
  • 42. The Appleseed Cast - Sagarmatha Double LP 12" [The Militia Group/Graveface]
  • 43. Crestfallen - Streaks Of Terror LP 12" [Handstand]
  • 44. Julia - Seven Songs 12" [Ebullition #30.5/Rivers End #4]
  • 45. Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Lift Yr Skinny Fists Like Antennas To Heaven 12" [Constellation #CST012]
  • 46. Knapsack - Silver Sweepstakes [Alias]
  • 47. Thee Silver Mt. Zion Memorial Orchestra & Tra-la-la Band - Horses In The Sky 10" [Constellation #CST018-1]
  • 48. The Saddest Lanscape - The Sound Of The Spectacle 12" [Narshardaa]
  • 49. This Will Destroy You - Selt-titled 12" [Magic Bullet #MBL100]
  • 50. The Appleseed Cast - Mare Vitalis Double LP 12" [Deep Elm/Graveface]
  • 51. Indian Summer - 12" [Future/Adagio 830]
  • 52. Loma Prieta - Our LP Is Your EP 12" [Disco Shuelga #HUEL003]
  • 53. Kid Kilowatt - Guitar Method 12" [Second Nature/Hydrahead]
  • 54. This Will Destroy You - Young Mountain 12" [Magic Bullet #MBL081]
  • 55. Rush - Tom Sawyer/Witch Hunt 7" [Mercury/Polygram]
  • 56. Straight, No Chaser - 12" [The Magic Star Traveler Vol 4]
  • 57. Suis La Lune - Heir 10" [Escucha #10/Blessed Hands #12/TDD #12/Fasden #2/Neat Skeleton #03]
  • 58. Suis La Lune - Quiet! Pull The Strings 12" [Ape Must Not Kill Ape #22/Asymmetrie #3/Release The Bats #20/Quiet Still Dead #01]
  • 59. Michael Bassett - Soft Yields 12" [Eschatone #33]
  • 60. Sadness Gardens Happiness - Stream Of Consciousness CD [Bad Pie Records]
  • 61. Ordination Of Aaron - Double LP Discography 12" [#577/1000] [Adagio 830]
  • 62. We All Inherit The Moon - Cassette [Scotch Tapes #3/30]
  • 63. Song Of Zarathustra/Racebannon - Near And Far Vol. 2 split 12" [Level Plane #42]
  • 64. Loma Prieta - Dark Mountain 12" [Discos Huelga]
  • 65. Weekend Nachos - Torture EP 7" [Tooth Decay #1]
  • 66. Indian Summer/Current/Boilermaker/Allure/Shroom Union/Embassy/Julia - Eucalyptus split 7" [Tree]
  • 67. Creation Is Crucifixion - Dethrone Or Devour 7" [Hater #9]
  • 68. Dirty Fist - Let's Get Devastated CD [Redacted]
  • 69. Go Tigers! - Untitled CD [#9]
  • 70. Dirty Fist - Tit For Tat CD [Redacted]
  • 71. Total Abuse - 12" [Derranged]
  • 72. Cult Ritual - 12" [Youth Attack]
  • 73. Mara'akate - 12" [Alone Records #AL-040]
  • 74. Shards - Cassette tape [#232/250] [Sorry State #SSR-17.5]
  • 75. Mike Bell - How To Avoid Your Past cassette tape [Be Happy]
  • 76. No Mans Slave/I Resign - Summer Tour 7" [#32]
  • 77. Sick Fix - 7" [Third Party #TPR-032]
  • 78. Miischa/Broken Chords Can Sing A Little - Cassette Tape [Tall Cedar Tapes]
  • 79. We Were Skeletons - Ryan Oatman CD
  • 80. We All Inherit The Moon/The Ascent Of Everest - Split LP [10/100] [Future Recordings #009]
  • 81. Horrid Cross - Demo 1 Cassette [Irradiated Corpse/Corpse Without Soul] [Cassette Serial? #831 20 1357]
  • 82. Racebannon/Mara'akate - Split 7" [The Electric Human Project]
  • 83. Catena Collapse/La Quiete - Split 7" [Adagio 830] [3rd pressing]
  • 84. Corn On Macabre - 7" [Magic Bullet #031]
  • 85. Rites Of Spring - All Through A Life 7" [Dischord #22] [Original pressing]
  • 86. Casket Lottery/Waxwing - Split 7" [Second Nature #017] [#0406]
  • 87. Books Lie/Living Under Lies - Split 7" [Tokyo Fist #3]
  • 88. Sleepy Time Trio - [Nervous Wreck Kids]
  • 89. The Saddest Landscape - A Promise Was Made 10" [Alone Records #69]
  • 90. Dolcim - Guillotine Ride 12" [React With Protest]
  • 91. Danse Macabre - Synkopenleben, Nein Danke 12" [React With Protest]
  • 92. June Paik - Self Titled 12" [React With Protest/Parade Of Spectres]
  • 93. Spazz/25 Ta Life - Split 7" [Edison]
  • 94. Rainer Maria - 1955 7" [Polyvinyl]
  • 95. June Paik - 10" [React With Protest]
  • 96. La Quiete/Louise Cyphre - Split 10" [Electric Human Project]
  • 97. Yaphet Kotto - 12" [Ebullition #43]
  • 98. Yage - The Human Head Too Strong For Itself 10" [Code Of Ethics]
  • 99. Koji On The Roof/Raise Up Roof Beams - Split 7" [Colormake]
  • 100. Admiral - Revolving And Loading 7" [Ebullition]
  • 101. Asshole Parade - Welcome Fucking Home 7" [No Idea #273]
  • 102. Years Passing - cassette [Fasden #04]
  • 103. Suis La Lune - 7" [Fasden, Escucha, Listen To Aylin, Quiet.Still.Dead]
  • 104. Health - 7" [Suicide Squeeze]
  • 105. Mineral - 2 song 7" [Crank! #020]
  • 106. Ampere/Sinaloa - Split 12"
  • 107. Orchid - Self-titled 12" [Ebullition]
  • 108. Combatwoundedveteran - I Know A Girl Who Develops Crime Scene Photos 12" [No Idea, Second Edition Blue/Pink/Yellow]
  • 109. Off Minor - The Heat Death Of The Universe 12" [Clean Plate #35]
  • 110. Ghastly City Sleep - Moondrifts CD [Self-released] [#? of 100]
  • 111. I Hate Myself - 10 Songs 12" [No Idea] [Original Pressing]
  • 112. I Hate Myself - 3 Songs 12" [No Idea]
  • 113. Heroin - Heroin 12" [Gravity Records]
  • 114. Ampere - All Our Tomorrows End Today 10" [Ebullition #57]
  • 115. Yaphet Kotto/Suicide Nation - Split 7" [Council Records]
  • 116. Outbreak - Work To Death 7" [Think Fast!] [#? of 700]
  • 117. Stop It!! - Great Hits 10" [Robotic Empire]
  • 118. Sunshine/Julia - Split 7" [Day After]
  • 119. Sawhorse - 7" [Ebullition]
  • 120. Fire Team Charlie - 12" [Magister Ludi]

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

The Fest 2009


I will be leaving tonight around midnight for this. I am beyond excited. Not only because Small Brown Bike, Samiam and Shitstorm are all reuniting, but because I will be able to spend 5 days straight with my girlfriend!

There are hundreds of bands playing, but I am excited for the following: Small Brown Bike, Comadre, Ampere, Dirty Fist, Shitstorm, Defiance Ohio, Outbreak, Capsule, Lemuria, Coffin Dancer, Algernon Cadwallader, Polar Bear Club, Ruiner, Russian Circles, Ben Davis, Andrew Jackson Jihad, L'Anteitam, Asshole Parade, Vaccine, Daniel Striped Tiger, Snacktruck, Fin Fang Foom, Ghastly City Sleep, Forensics, Pygmy Lush, Magrudergrind, Strike Anywhere, This Bike Is A Pipe Bomb, Youth Brigade and Young Widows.

Oh my god... Just typing out that paragraph got me so stoked. I am also pretty excited that most of the bands I haven't even heard. That means there is plenty of opportunity for me to discover great music. I wish there was more powerviolence and good screamo going on, but either way I know I'll be happy. And I'm going to come back broke as shit.

Time to get back to work so I can try and fill my wallet as much as I can before I leave.

The Ecstasy Of Saint Theresa - Fluidtrance Centauri EP


This EP is one of the best shoegaze releases, ever. It is the first time I've heard so much phasing (the guitar effect) in a shoegaze band. It is always reverb, delay, vibrato, chorus and flanging but never much phasing. This was a pleasant surprise.

I have been listening to their EP "Pigment" for quite some time now. This release is a bit darker and less upbeat, but I like it more.


Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Personal update!


Since I've been grilled by several friends for excessively posting political things with no personal updates, I've decided to give in. Only after I lectured the hell out of them in return about how this is my blog and I can post whatever I want, of course.

I have been doing a lot with Sensible Nectar. I have a show coming up on the 2nd of November. It will be my first show under that name performing solo ambient noise stuff. I recorded about an hour's worth of music for a cassette label called Afternoons Modeling who will be doing custom, hand-made artwork for a limited edition of the release. I want to play more shows but I am having trouble finding venues and shows where I would even remotely fit in.

Shadow Gov't has three shows coming up next month. I am very excited to be finally playing out with that band. We still have only 3 songs so I am kind of nervous, but hopefully we will get a few more practices in before our first show. Things are moving slow with the band because of conflicting schedules, but it's not a big deal because that band isn't really my main focus right now.

Age Sixteen has only tried out one drummer so far, but we have three more preparing to try out soon. I really hope we get someone settled in so we can start playing out again, and more importantly, writing new material! I am not sure when our split 7" with Wren Lloyd is going to come out, but we still have to get the Sunny Day Real Estate cover mixed before we do anything else.

The Human Excuse is writing quite a bit. I've been coming up with a lot of songs, equal parts country/folk and melancholy/Owen-ish. Both styles I very much enjoy, so I am happy to be doing a lot of both on the next release. You can hear some new songs on the Myspace. I would also like to play more shows and I think the secret to that is playing as many open mic nights as possible. I just always forget when they are happening.

A Perfect Kiss now has a full set together made up of 10 songs. I am really excited for our reunion show because Prawn is playing. I am almost more stoked on seeing them live again than I am playing my own reunion show! I don't know if we will be playing more local shows after this but I think an NJ date is in the works because The Progress are coming back for a show as well and they want us to play it.

Aside from music, not much has been going on except for the fact that my girlfriend Elyce is ridiculously stunning, inspiring, enjoyable, beautiful and... well, I could go on and on for days straight, but my friends hear enough about her when they are around me so I will spare readers the eye-full.

Also, my job at Merchspin is treating me well. I do wish I was making more money, but I am making a little more than I used to so I am grateful. The job is more rewarding the harder I work. Plus, I get bonuses often which is good incentive to work hard. I wish my job was more artistic, but I still enjoy what I do. I am still doing freelance art on the side but not nearly as much as I'd like. I am not good enough to support myself with art, but I have accepted that and am still getting better. I have been meaning to redo my portfolio with a photo section integrated, but I've been putting it off due to work and other things. It will get done eventually. I get sort of depressed and frustrated every time I remember that I don't have it completed, so many posting about it will encourage me to finish it. The layout is already done, I just need to make more thumbnails and get the Lightbox script going.

I have been listening to mainly Hammock, Type O Negative, The Cure and Bjork lately. Basically, anything with reverb, delay and chorus. If you know me, you are undoubtedly not surprised, I'm sure.

Oh, and I'm head-over-heels addicted and emotionally invested in the Dexter TV series.

I have a huge headache and I want to try and get to sleep at a reasonable hour. Goodnight.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Remember when Obama said that government transparency was going to be on of his main priorities?

The White House is not going to allow the president’s newly created “czars” to testify before Congress.

White House Counsel Greg Craig has indicated that he will refuse to allow any of the 18 new “czar” positions created by President Obama to testify before Congress, according to Sen. Susan Collins (R-Maine), the ranking Republican on the Senate Homeland Security and Governmental Affairs Committee.

Collins revealed during a committee hearing Thursday that she had spoken with Craig, who had earlier sent a letter on behalf of the president, and that Craig told her personally that Congress would not get a chance to ask fundamental questions of the czars about their roles and responsibilities.

“Indeed, yesterday when I was talking to Greg Craig, the president’s legal counsel, he made it very clear that the White House would prohibit any of these officials with significant policy responsibility from coming to testify before us if they are located within the Executive Office of the President,” Collins said in her written opening statement.

Read the full article here: http://www.cnsnews.com/news/article/55973

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

The Current Economic Climate

This is a repost from my friend Jeremiah.

Hi Everyone,

I am concerned about the next few months/years in our nation's economy. Unfortunately, the chance that the Dollar will devalue soon, and rapidly, is becoming more and more likely. Central banks around the globe are preparing to drop the dollar as their reserve currency, while our central bank, The Federal Reserve, has constantly pumped the dollar into foreign and domestic markets.

If money somehow affects your everyday life like it does mine, I implore you to do the following:
  • Listen to this 37 min audio program that explains, in a rather simple way, how The Federal Reserve System works: http://www.mediafire.com/?m5dihjzglyy
  • Read the historical bills currently in front of congress (H.R. 1207 & S. 604; NOT the Federal Reserve Accountability Act), which is the first step in creating a stable monetary system that isn't rigged to benefit the proprietors of said system.
  • Email, call, or write your representative to let them know your thoughts on H.R. 1207 (and other important bills): http://www.visi.com/juan/congress/
  • Also, you may want to watch this hour long video about Argentina's economic collapse after their currency rapidly devalued. Unfortunately, Argentina is only one of many nations that have fallen in this manner - http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=4353655982817317115#

Thanks!!!

Jeremiah

P.S. - If you'd like to learn more about how financial risk is transferred from private industry to the public taxpayer via bailouts, check out this 43 min audio program: http://www.mediafire.com/?1unnm2jywvi

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Owen & Death Cab

I uploaded some albums for a friend, so I thought I would link to them on my blog for the hell of it. I'm too busy to upload album artwork to make this post look really nice.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Muzzy

This is one of my favorite 90's midwestern emo songs ever written. My friend Jordan had a band (and I don't know the name), sort of, for a while, and this was one of the songs they wrote and recorded. The song is the epitome of it's genre and it makes me miss middle school. I wish he'd get another band together and keep making music like this.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Romantic Love

limerence |ˈlimərəns|
n. the state of being infatuated or obsessed with another person, typically involuntary, and characterized by a strong desire for reciprocation of one's feelings but not primarily for a sexual relationship.

Many people are stuck forever in this wash-and-rinse cycle of romantic love because they believe that fiery romantic love can be everlasting.

The romantic couples who have been together for half their lives have something quite different from romantic love. Johnson calls it “stirring-the-oatmeal” love – “it represents a willingness to share ordinary human life, to find meaning in the simple, unromantic tasks … to find the relatedness, the value, the beauty, in the simple and ordinary things, not to eternally demand a cosmic drama … or an extraordinary intensity in everything” (pg. 195). In a strange way, this is true love because it can be everlasting, but this is not the love script that we are bombarded with from every literary or entertainment form in our lives.

Many of us have at one point or another been imprisoned by the painful, irrational clutches of limerence gone bad. But in a culture where romantic “love” is often presented in entirely paradoxical ways, it is inevitable that many people are unable to untangle limerence from love. Romantic love and all its implications are deeply rooted in our culture, and perhaps these irrational reactions have evolutionary underpinnings, but that does not mean we have to be imprisoned by them. For as long as we project god-like idealizations onto our romantic partners and demand that they make us happy as the fairy tales describe, we will never truly love them as human beings. Limerence may be a wonderful way to begin a relationship, but that relationship will never get anywhere unless both individuals are willing and able to see each other for who they are. In the end, the basis of a stable relationship is founded on a love that emerges not in spite of but because of the other person’s flaws and weaknesses, because ultimately it is our imperfections that make us human. We can seek out limerence with angels, but we can only find true love among mortals.

The Cruel Sea

One's delusional perspectives can hinder their capability and willingness to get to know someone for who they really are. One can misuse their deeply rooted, emotional bones of contention, messy scars and warped techniques of comprehension formed and molded by a past full of prominent and explicit experiences to paint an inaccurate picture of ones character and identity. If the existence of this stubborn mind-set is unintentional, to shift this person's position made up of misfired interpretations and inhibited vision consciously is virtually impossible. And how does one realize that reconstruction is needed? One does not, and no one other person can convince them of anything. As far as I can understand, time equipped with extreme internal efforts to maintain a positive attitude and a hard outer shell is the only answer. Lots and lots of time.

And if you're like me, forceful patience, endurance and passiveness is key because I am someone going through this.


Monday, October 12, 2009

Favorite songs ever.

I am currently compiling a playlist of my favorite songs of all time. The list keeps getting larger and it hit 36 today. I hope to stop there because although I want it to be comprehensive and summarizing of who I am, I also want it to be a nutshell sort of approach. I don't want to bombard the listener with hours of music touching on every detail of my musical and emotional being. I cannot bare to cut any of the songs out, however. I will upload this playlist, in proper order, as soon as it is finished. I am very excited.

Cloud over Moscow City

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Towers - Full Circle, Summer 2006 CDR, Self-titled

Towers is a punk band from Philadelphia. It's hard to describe their sound but there are prominent elements of noise, hardcore, sludge/doom and screamo. They remind me a bit of Phoenix Bodies but other than that, I can't quite put my finger on any other comparisons that would do them any justice. They have a ton of releases under their belt which I am still trying to fully acquire. Up for download are the ones I currently have. Enjoy.



Thursday, October 8, 2009

Makara - Discography

One of my favorite bands ever is Welcome The Plague Year. They were a female and male fronted heavy, dark screamo band along the lines of Orchid and Neil Perry. In fact, they shared members of those bands. The female vocalist of WTPY was in another band called Makara and I just scored their discography. It's really good. Obviously, it gets better as the album goes along because the songs are in chronological order. Get it!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

The achievement of an anarchist society...

Q [David Goodway]: Do you think that the achievement of an anarchist society is a practical possibility and, if so, how do you conceive it being realized? Or is it, rather, a matter of attaining a more libertarian, less hierarchical society. Would you agree that the Western society, at least, has become much freer during the course of your own lifetime?

A [Colin Ward]: Economists talk of "perfect co-operation" as the ideal type for an anarchist society. I do not believe that an anarchist society is a practical possibility, and my lack of belief is not to do with the viability of anarchism but with the nature of human societies, since every society that we can imagine in the modern world is a mixture of different, often contradictory tendencies.

For example, before the collapse of the Soviet Union, I used to say that the thing that made life tolerable there was the unacknowledged private market elements that enabled citizens to buy fresh vegetables or razor blades, and that, similarly, the only thing that makes life possible for millions in the United States are it's non-capitalist elements. Contrary to rumor, friends tell me that if you collapse in the street there, the hospital treats you before it enquires about your insurance status. Huge area of life in the United States, and everywhere else, are built around voluntary and mutual aid organizations.

But yes, of course, life in Western society has become immensely more free in the course of my own adult life. I have already quoted to you Dwight Macdonald's famous footnote about the important things in people's lives: "the actual relationships on the job, the way they spend their leisure, and child-rearing and sex and art" - which have changed immensely since I was young. I would find it difficult to place, in order of significance, the different areas of human freedom which have expanded, in Western society, during the last forty years. But let me try.

The first of these is undoubtedly women's liberation, and with this a series of sexual issues are involved, like the availability of contraception and abortion. But the implications of the women's movement seem to me to be wider. The kinds of anti-social behavior that makes our fellow-citizens unable to accept the concept of an anarchist society are predominantly male activities. A second expansion of human freedom has been the decriminalization of homosexuality, where in my lifetime vast injustices and cruelties were perpetrated in the name of morality and the law.

The third huge revolution in attitudes relates to the sexual information given to the young. Anarchists, for example Alex Comfort and John Hewetson, were important in ridiculing the myths about masturbation and providing advice about pregnancy and ways of avoiding it. A comparison of statistics about unwanted teenage pregnancies between Britain and, say, the Netherlands and Denmark or Sweden, seems to indicate that the revolution in sexual education has some way to go, but anyone old enough to remember the silent horrors of adolescent pregnancies in the past will know that we have moved a great distance.

The same thing applies, almost incidentally, to the abandonment of physical punishment in schools. Even the English have become more civilized, and the anarchists have been among the civilizing factors.

-Talking Anarchy

The order of work was the order of a world.

The order of work was the order of a world. The evidence of its ruin is paralyzing to those who dread what will come after. Today work is tied less to the economic necessity of producing goods than to the political necessity of producing producers and consumers, and of preserving by any means necessary the order of work. Producing oneself is becoming the dominant occupation of a society where desperation sets about hammering and sawing himself. All these young people smiling for their job interviews, who have their teeth whitened to give them an edge, who go to nightclubs to boost their company spirit, who learn English to advance their careers, who get divorced or married to move up the ladder, who take courses in leadership or practice "self-improvement" in order to better "manage conflicts"-"the most intimate 'self-improvement'," says one guru, "will lead to increased emotional stability, to smoother and more open relationships, to sharper intellectual focus, and therefore to a better economic performance." This swarming little crowd that waits impatiently to be hired while doing whatever it can to seem natural is the result of an attempt to rescue the order of work through an ethos of mobility. To be mobilized is to relate to work not as an activity but as a possibility. If the unemployed person removes his piercings, goes to the barber and finds himself busy with "projects," if he really works on his "employability," as they say, it's because this is how he demonstrates his mobility. Mobility is this slight detachment from the self, this minimal disconnection from what constitutes us, this condition of strangeness whereby the self can now be taken up as an object of work, and now it becomes possible to sell oneself rather than one's labor power, to be remunerated not for what one does but for what one is, for our exquisite mastery of social codes, for our relational talents, for our smile and our way of presenting ourselves. This is the new standard of socialization. Mobility brings about a fusion of the two contradictory poles of work: here we participate in our own exploitation, and all participation is exploited. Ideally, you are yourself a little business, your own boss, your own product. Whether one is working or not, it's a question of generating contacts, abilities, networking, in short: "human capital." The planetary injunction to mobilize at the slightest pretext-cancer, "terrorism," an earthquake, the homeless-sums up the reigning powers' determination to maintain the reign of work beyond it's physical disappearance.

The present production apparatus is therefore, on the one hand, a gigantic machine for psychic and physical mobilization, for sucking the energy of humans that have become superfluous, and, on the other hand, a sorting machine that allocates survival to compliant subjectivities and rejects all "problem individuals," all those who embody another use of life and, in this way, resist the machine. One the one hand, ghosts are brought to life, and on the other, the living are left to die. This is the properly political function of the contemporary production apparatus.

-The Coming Insurrection

This makes me so happy!

Monday, October 5, 2009

What comes with the territory.

People will always mistake those with opinions or abilities for arrogant, pompous, egotistical jerks. It is inevitable, and it is a shame. There is a difference between an egomaniac who thinks he is an infallible God's-gift-to-humanity who proclaims his or herself as an activist strictly for self-empowerment or admiration, and those who are simply passionate and strong-minded.

Whoever thought that I had at any point claimed to know everything, have no flaws, make no mistakes, never fall short, keep my temper, not let things slip that I shouldn't, not do things I shouldn't, never treat people badly, be infallibly honest, be always careful, be never forgetful, etc., is hastily jumping to conclusions and probably does so in order to build their own selves up. I've been called "fag" and "freak" all my life by everyone from people passing me in the mall to people driving by on the highway. It is the true freaks who are the insulters because they feel like they need to do such a thing in order to feel adequate and secure. I hope that the things I do in my life help, even a little bit, put an end to that complex.

Most of the time, I don't think I have fear for being corrected. Sometimes I think I am right when I am not. Sometimes I am proven wrong, sometimes I am not. And the times that I am wrong, it is because I am no different from anyone else. I am a person. An imperfect being with the greatest of intentions and not the greatest of abilities.

I have at many times, and it has been pointed out to me shockingly, that I can come off as stand-offish and full of myself. This hurts to be told. Partially because I sincerely believe that perception is based on a pre-tainted approach. I think that people expect me to be this way merely because of whatever talents or opportunities I have. Other times, this conclusion is formed simply because one doesn't know me well, so they don't know how to accurately decipher my behavior. Have you ever been in a situation where someone says what they think of someone, and someone butts in and says "Oh, that's just the way he/she is. He/she doesn't mean anything by it. You're taking it the wrong way." I feel like that can be applied to me, often. This is somewhat of a downfall, because I would like to be accurately perceived by anyone at any time, but that is just not possible.

I try not to seem pretentious, but I am confident in the things I know I am good at and admittedly aware of the things I am not. It is hard to balance such a task under the sort of "spotlight" I may be under from time to time, whether it be because of my bands, my blog, my art or what have you. I am not and never wanted to be a celebrity or attention-starved. In fact, there are a variety of types of attention that make me uncomfortable. I guess I do not mind being complimented for my talents, but I don't like when people think too highly of me. I do what I do because of what I believe and what I love. I strive to treat everyone with respect even though I often fall. That is how I would like to be perceived, all humanity considered.

I am starting to forget why I am even posting this. I guess it is because of a recent comment on one of my posts where I was accused of being pompous. I wish I could do what I do without people so quickly throwing me into a category with proud, immodest, self-important big names. I'm just some kid with a voice who does a LOT of shit in the music, art and internet communities. I hope that any egotism I may unknowingly be plagued with is rapidly humbled. I understand an open, permeable mind and heart is essential for this to take place.

On the other hand, and lately, I have been feeling excellent. I think I've stripped my life of some things that were holding me back. And no offense is intended to those that may be negatively affected by this stripping away I've done. It is only for everyone's own good, in my opinion. Sometimes we need to do what we have to do to be happy. Sometimes that means quitting bands, breaking up with boyfriends or girlfriends, breaking habits, moving to a new location or what have you.

I've started doing some work with We Are Change. I missed the first street action event due to having plans with my family and friends, but I plan on making it a semi-weekly thing.

I've been meaning to start on Brave New World. On of these days.

I have been feeling comfortable. Like I belong, like I am appreciated, like I know where I want to be and should be. I feel accomplished, I feel equipped to accomplish, and I feel love and life.

Tonight, I play acoustic in Frederick for a dating abuse benefit show.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Thoughts on activism and blogging

Writing things on the internet from the comfort of your own bedroom can act as spreading vital awareness but should not necessarily substitute real revolutionary activism. On the other hand, it is a widely accepted thought that revolution starts with a thought and an individual. A blog post or an article is merely a public documentation of that thought by that individual with the intention of informing the reader. Therefore, it is far from ineffective or fruitless to write about issues in blogs, zines, Facebook notes, Myspace bulletins or what have you. I am frankly tired of missionaries, protestors, people who donate to charity, people who run non-profit organzations, etc. giving bloggers shit for what they do just because they are not doing something in the streets. Anyone and everyone can always do something more. We all have our strengths, gifts and talents. To one, writing may be a talent while to another, playing music may be theirs. We are all tools that make up one gigantic body. We must all work together, writers and activists alike, without insulting each other just because the specific talent we are exercising may or may not be as strenuous on our bodies. In fact, if you are doing something, rather than nothing, and it is for the right reasons, that is a lot more respectable than a vigorous activist who criticizes the blogger for remaining in his home on a computer. If everyone was in the streets, there would be no one at home to take care of distributing literature about the cause that the bull-horners and sign-holders are militantly yelling about. We all know corporate media often ignores certain protests just as much as they ignore famine and genocide in third world countries. Without the unfurling of consciousness by the form of honest media and activist propaganda, the world would be a lot more lost and uninformed than it is already.

Concerning posting blog entries about things I have not yet fully researched...
My defense has been that I had thought of my blog as a room full of people discussing things where I would go "I saw this film, it made me feel this and that, I am concerned about this and that" and someone else goes "I understand, but check this and that out." However, I think I feel as if that is an unrealistic way to think about it. It is a blog... although I do welcome comments and always approve them even if I don't agree with them (free speech!), I do have the floor because I am the one starting these topics. I get the large print. I always do my research before forming solid opinions, but I don't always do this before posting an initial reaction for the sake of documenting progress. This has it's perks but also it's downfalls. I think my initial post has made the downfalls of that system very apparent.
I have read the book How Nonviolence Protects The State by Peter Gelderloos and you would think that the book would have annihilated my view of pacifist activism. However, I do not believe it to be useless, even after reading the book and agreeing with almost every single point. It did a number on my brain and opened my mind to many new ideas, but it still does not give me the notion that I should give up activism or any medium or sort.

I have recently downloaded from a zine library several articles on activism and it's downfalls in effectiveness. I plan on reading them all since I have become so increasingly passionate about certain causes and ideas. I want to be challenged. I feel that without challenge, opinions and values are weak and unfounded.

Invisible Children follow-up post

As expected, I got a stream of responses by people on both sides of the fence concerning Invisible Children. Besides a few mindless insults that didn't hold much ground, I came across a lot of good information, including the financial reports that IC makes totally public. This is awesome, and my level of respect for the organization is quite high because of this.

It seems that many people and I disagree on specific activist tactics, whether it has to do with congressional bills or assumptions concerning the motives of activists, celebrities or politicians. That is just something that we all have to agree to disagree on. It has been said by many people that the motives of those pushing the cause are irrelevant because, in the end, the cause is being pushed. And noticed. That stirs up severe controversy within my moral convictions, but I guess I can accept that it doesn't directly relate to IC itself. I have always been one to say "hate the playa, not the game." Just because some kids, celebrities, politicians, or what have you, may be diving head-first into IC, it doesn't mean that the movement itself is flawed. However, if I were anyone directly involved with IC, I would put a lot more focus on encouraging the public to do what they do for the right reasons. I am almost afraid that many of them simply do not care, and deem it 100% irrelevant, the intentions and motives of any given IC activist. That is downright frightening to me. Yes, the building may be standing, but does the nature of the architecture have any meaning? I would not want to wear a beautifully-designed shirt created by an extreme racist, nor would I want to listen to the beautiful sounds of a band who rapes under-aged girls on tour.

Another thing that has been heavily debated and defended is IC's use of hip graphics, music and apparel to draw attention to, and to financially support their charitable cause. And none of that I say sarcastically or passive-aggressively. I completely understand the point of view that appealing to the masses is critical when the cause needs all of the attention and funding they can get in order to accomplish their goals of not only ending the war, but rebuilding the economy, rehabilitating former abductees, etc. It is just an evil necessity, and I wish there were ways around it.

It is also said that the manner in which the cause presents itself (stylish and professional) is also necessary for that attention and funding. Another evil necessity in my opinion. I have always thought that the raw information, without dramatic affect, would draw me into what matters. That is not the case in this society, I guess. I still have not completely gathered my thoughts and settled on a point of view about this, but I have always leaned toward being turned off by excessive marketing. I feel as if it does the opposite for me. I just want the facts without them being dressed up. Either I am wrong about myself, or I am wrong that it is unnecessary. Regardless, I look at it as "selling out" but there is always the debate on the actual immorality of selling out that we could have.

One person gave me a lengthy explanation behind the profiling of the founders of IC in the film but it didn't exactly win me over or fill the void in my brain about this. I understand that the presentation of the motivational speeches and footage of the mass movements of kids in the streets was attempting to show the community aspect of the movement, and although I don't have too many strong issues with that, I still feel way more attention was focused on "feeling like you're part of a community" rather than the liberation of these children and the end to the war at hand. Once again, I am starting to drift into the argument that we were shown the wrong film in order to give us our debut of all that is IC.

I was contacted by someone who works with IC directly and he gave me a very open-ended offer to call him and discuss my concerns. He told me that he completely understands all of my points, and that he would be willing to talk to me about all of them in the future. He even said that he felt the same way I did at first. This made me feel really good because someone who was so close to the managing of the organization connected with me and understood me. This encouraged me to look into things even deeper. Some of the negative responses I received in private, not even just in blog comments, just made me angry because they were so defensive and didn't seem to really acknowledge the true nature of my previous blog post and my motives behind posting it. I have been accused of bashing IC and what I've posted is hardly bashing, rather, questioning and showing concern. In my opinion, anyway.

I have been told that I should have done extensive research before posting anything. I agree and disagree at the same time. I am very much allowed to post my thoughts and opinions on any one thing whether it be based on a first impression or after spending years with something. As long as my post was labeled as an initial reaction to a particular film, which it was, I don't see anything wrong with my post. But again, that is just my opinion. But it is not like I watched one film, judged an entire organization based off of it, and left it at that. I was purposefully opening a door, not shutting one.

Lastly, I have been accused, once again, of being a "bedroom activist." So quickly people criticize others' nature and level of activeness in society without really knowing what those people are up to. It is possible that those may do works not necessarily in secret, but not in the spotlight, because what matters most is the cause and not the empowerment nor the fame. Certainly I have shared with several friends experiences I've had in being active, but I do not want to flaunt it.

Additionally, and very importantly, I do not believe that blogging is an ineffective type of activism and many people will argue that for some reason unknown to me. However, it should it ever replace real physical activism outside of the house. I write blog entries with the intention of entertainment but mostly to inform and invoke thought. That is absolutely a genre of activism. We all have our roles and our strengths. We are all society's own separate, individual, unique tools that we use to make this world a better place. Bloggers, protesters, construction workers, merchandise printers, public speakers, film editors and missionaries alike can and do all work together for one cause.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Health - Self-titled, Get Color, Disco



I saw Health last night for the first time after several years of being a huge fan. It was a night I will never forget. I had such a good time. Too bad all of the other acts that played were pretty horrible. Double Dagger wasn't that bad, but the two opening acts, including Shams, were utter trash. The guy that does Shams makes horrid techno music with sexist, racist, poorly written lyrics. All night my friend Elyce and I wanted to punch him in the face and knock his stupid hat off of his stupid head. Yes, what I am saying is harsh and down-right insulting, but so was he.

Anyway... DOWNLOAD HEALTH'S MUSIC if you like spazzy, noisy, dancy, chaotic non-sense. Health is one of the many bands that dabbles in noise making that isn't trying too hard to be weird. In fact, they are pretty normal dudes. Their music on the other hand is ground-breaking. Imagine if the Locust and Crystal Castles had a baby...

Zine starting!

I know that I have said this a lot in the past, but I am trying to start a zine again. I put a few out years and years ago, and within the past 6 years I have started and stopped putting one together on 4 distinct occasions.

In recent weeks I have been downloading, reading, picking through and skimming over lots of independent DIY zines and my love for them has been severely rekindled!

I am not sure what direction I will be going in as far as content, but I assume it will be a conglomeration of articles and rants about music, politics, anarchism, libertarianism, US or world history, as well as showcasing photos, art, lyrics, poems, etc. I am a huge fan of multi-genre shows, so I am sure I will be applying that mindset to the zine so that I can provide something for everyone who wants to buy one or read through it.

I plan on making this zine extremely cheap or offered up for trades. I plan on putting it together without the use of a publishing program but rather, by hand. Of course text will be typed up, but I would rather glue and tape things together before copies are made. Less professional, more personal.

I am looking for submissions! So anything you'd like to submit whether it be a political rant, a pencil or pen drawing you did, a photo, a music review (of any genre), book review, film review, even if it's just an ad for your band, please message them to me! I can't wait to put this together! Donations only will be accepted for ads. I don't want to do them for free due to the cost of making copies and postage, but I will accept any and all donations.

Thanks!

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My take on Invisible Children based strictly on the film The Rescue


First of all, I know I am going to catch a LOT of shit for this. Partially because the majority of my friends, and I am literal when I say that, are involved with Invisible Children. To be honest, I am involved, too. I signed the petition, I have done a little promotion for the cause, etc. I do not believe the movement to be a waste of time or completely a negative thing by any means. However, I have a few problems with how they conduct themselves and the methods they are using to try and make the different they all want to make.

I have felt the way I feel for quite some time, but after seeing the IC screening the other night at Charm City Art Space (the first screening I have ever seen in full by IC), I felt quite compelled to speak out because I found that a lot of people were severely emotionally moved by the film and I was a little nervous that their emotions were stirred by dramatizations and celebrity profiles rather than the vast group of children being killed and oppressed in Africa.

Now, on to the point.

I feel as if the organization may be using the little money they have and make in a number of irresponsible ways. I am not saying that they are pocketing money and making themselves rich by any means. I am just saying that from what I have seen, there money can't possibly be being spent on furthering their voice and equipping them with revolutionary means more than it is dressing up their vans and video production amongst many other things.

For one example, many of the cities that represented the Rescue movement had their own professionally produced banner with their city's name on it. That banner is useless and pointless. And if they really wanted to make one, trashed remnants of tarp or vinyl with a few rolls of black duct tape would have done the trick. It would have been a more personal creation with a lot more money set aside to put toward the liberation of these innocent children forced into massively detrimental warfare.

Another example of money irresponsibly spent was this ridiculous film. It looked so very nice, pristine, edgy and hip complete with good music (plenty of Sigur Ros, which was awesome, actually) and lots of neat (and cheesy, in my opinion) effects. Who did they pay to make this video? How much did they spend? Anyone can cue up free video editing software and make a decent film with the intention of informing the public about serious issues. However, I don't even want to know what kind of money they wasted on the production of that film. It was unnecessarily flashy when you think about the point of what that film was supposed to actually do. Or at least I think I know what it was supposed to so. Which brings me to my next rant.

Second, the celebrity profiles made me nauseous. I have respect for anyone behind an organization that carries out any planned revolutionary action with the intention of really making a difference and ending some sort of terrible, heartless oppression. However, most of this film was centered around the staff and their unique personalities as well as all of the kids who stick by them and assist them in what they do. I understand that sounds harsh, but allow me to elaborate...

In the film, several times it was mentioned that the young girl who helped start the movement (and I don't remember her name because it wasn't as important to me) was "only 18 years old!" I'd say half of the film had footage of her speaking, being silly, showing her compassion or what have you. There was a lot of footage of speeches that the staff gave to the herds of people involved in protests and demonstrations, etc. Lots of dramatic footage meant to throw a tear-jerk into the audience of viewers in order to gain sympathy for all of the hard work they do, and for the times that they are just about too overwhelmed and ready to give up. I found myself turning to someone sitting next to me after watching 10 minutes straight of these "celebrity profiles" and saying (a little too loud) "okay...so... what about the fucking children?!"

Lastly, my main issue is not with the mass amounts of people they reach, because they reach a LOT of people with their super stylish t-shirts printed on American Apparel. My issue is what they are really doing, and not doing, to put an end to this war.

After much hard work, they were finally able to convince congress to put some attention forth toward the cause. A bill was proposed by Congress, after way too more convincing than should have been necessary (and this badly reflects upon congress, not IC) call on Barack Obama to arresting Joseph Kony, the man behind the child soldiers and his war, freeing all of the children. There is a petition for such (which I had signed, only because if this would actually happen, it would be a victory). However, if you have any realistic view of our government, they don't give a shit about any cause unless their reputation becomes damaged due to their avoidance. Now, with enough educating of the public, I think that driving the government to do something would be possible. However, our country are full of asshole nationalists and don't have one ounce of care about anything besides our bullshit health-care system amongst other things. It is my guess, and if I am proven wrong I will stand corrected, that there is nothing that the U.S. government will do about this. Unless of course we drift into harsher turmoil than we are already in and such a move would earn our government officials some brownie points in their approval ratings.

The Rescue movement called on celebrities and/or political figures (deemed as moguls) to publicly recognize each group of kids hiding out in each city so that they could be freed to return home. This would symbolize the rescue of the oppressed children in Africa. Would I be so wrong to suspect that a large portion of these celebrities and political figures acknowledged the IC to protect their own reputation? I mean, who is anyone of power or fame to ignore such an important issue? Now look at our government... they do this all the time, hence the paragraph above this one.


Why doesn't some militia somewhere organize, sneak up on Joseph Kony and capture or execute the guy? Easier said than done, I am sure, but this bill... is a joke. The IC motto itself, to me, is a joke. Forgive me, but IC claims to use the transformative power of story to change lives. Well, okay. If you want to label your cause as spreading awareness, that is fine. That is what I am doing right now. But please, spare me the "revolution" and the "movement" labels. That is not what an informational organization is.

Speaking of story, in that entire film, I saw just about two, maybe three, multi-second clips of accounts from Native Africans giving their own accounts. What one of the Africans said was probably the most profound statement made in that film. He commented about how if anyone dies in the U.S., the media and government attention is completely consumed, but when thousands of innocent children die in Africa due to mindless genocide, no one cares. Why wasn't that the point of the film?

Activism and protesting empowers people. It makes them feel a part of something, and that feels elating and beautiful. That is even admitted by the IC staff. They openly talk about, in their film, how amazing it makes them feel to be a part of something "this big." Is no one feeling any sort of personal conviction about how this is not about them, it is about the children? Many non-profits exist first and foremost as a community of like-minded people. They build strong relationships. Rarely do they, unknown to those involved, that they are missing the point by a mile or two.

I am not saying that activism groups, protesters and non-profits are all a waste of time... but we must remember two very important and influential historical quotes...
Commit planned acts of organized resistance & premeditated solidarity.
And...
No real social change has ever been brought about without a revolution.
One would consider the IC movement as revolutionary, and as I said before, I do not believe it to be pointless. However, revolution is defined specifically as a forcible overthrow of a government or social order in favor of a new system. IC being revolutionary is extremely debatable, I would think.

IC kids, don't give up. Keep doing what you are doing. But I advise you to take into strong consideration what I've said so that it may force you to re-think your tactics.

Please offer me your feedback and put me in my place. I'd like to keep an open mind and make another post about this as you all offer your thoughts and after I do further research.

EDIT: Remember, this post was based upon my first reaction to this film that was new to me and many people. I have limited knowledge concerning all of the details and depths of IC. I think that a mere IC virgin's reaction to the film is so important because it is what all of us in that room last night will use to help us decide whether or not we want to get further involved and/or educated. I am afraid that I was not given the best first impression of a cause that just may be completely worth everyone's while and effective.

I do not believe any research or responses given could sway my opinion about the decision made that The Rescue should be the initial presentation of IC to a room full of potential IC activists. I believe, regardless of anything about IC itself, this film was not the right way to genuinely grab our hearts. At least not for me.

Blooming.

When will you surprise me?
When will you kiss me?
When will you understand?
But you do.

When will you love me?
When will you support me?
When will I understand?
But I do.

I will never learn that I am never ready.
So I am prepared to dive in and glue it together.

Notice me.
Let it evolve.
To see what it is.